Embracing Fluidity in a Binary World: What If I Change My Mind About My Gender Identity Later?
The fear that keeps many questioning people awake at night—and why it shouldn't
Let's be real—questioning your gender identity is hard enough without the damn voice in your head asking, "But what if I'm wrong?" It's a legitimate concern that deserves a legitimate answer, especially from a nonbinary perspective where the journey often feels like navigating uncharted territory.
The fear of "making a mistake" about gender identity keeps countless people stuck in limbo, afraid to take steps that feel right today because they're terrified of regret tomorrow. Science tells us that identity exploration is healthy and normal, but our society still treats gender like it's set in damn stone. This article dives into why changing your mind isn't the catastrophe you might think it is—and why exploration itself has inherent value.
The Myth of Permanence
Our culture has a fucked-up obsession with permanence. We're expected to know ourselves completely and make unchangeable declarations about who we are. This pressure feels particularly heavy around gender identity.
Research from the Williams Institute shows that nonbinary identities are increasingly recognized across age groups, challenging the notion that gender must be fixed or binary. The diversity within nonbinary experiences demonstrates that gender exists on a spectrum that can shift and evolve.
The truth? Humans change. Our understanding of ourselves deepens. What feels right at 20 might feel different at 40, and that's not a failure—it's growth.
"The only constant in life is change," isn't just philosophical bullshit—it's biological reality. Our brains develop, our circumstances shift, and our self-understanding evolves. Why should gender be exempt from this natural process?
The Fear Behind the Question
When we worry about changing our minds, what we're really asking is: "Will I regret this?"
This fear often comes from external pressures rather than internal wisdom. Family expectations, media representation, and societal judgment can make exploration feel dangerous. A 2023 study in the Journal of LGBT Health found that social support significantly reduced psychological distress among nonbinary individuals—meaning external validation matters.
Behind this fear often lurks the assumption that changing your mind equals "making a mistake." But think about it—do we apply this same rigid standard to other aspects of identity? Hell no. We celebrate when people change careers, relocate, or redefine their values. These aren't failures—they're growth.
For nonbinary folks specifically, this fear can be amplified because we're already challenging a fundamental social binary. We worry that if we "change our minds," we'll reinforce harmful stereotypes that nonbinary identities aren't "real."
The Reality of Gender Fluidity
Here's something they don't teach in school: gender can be fluid as fuck for many people.
Gender fluidity—where gender identity shifts over time—is a legitimate experience. A longitudinal study published in Archives of Sexual Behavior documented that approximately 8% of participants reported shifts in gender identity over a five-year period. This doesn't invalidate their experience at any point—it simply reflects the complex nature of human identity.
For nonbinary individuals specifically, fluidity might mean moving between different nonbinary expressions, or experiencing periods of stronger connection to masculinity or femininity. Some might later identify as binary trans, while others might find comfort in different labels within the nonbinary umbrella.
Your journey might include stops at different identities. Each step isn't a mistake—it's valuable self-discovery that helps you understand the complex person you are.
What "Changing Your Mind" Actually Looks Like
Let's be clear about what "changing your mind" typically means in practice:
For most people, it's not a dramatic 180-degree flip but rather a refinement of understanding. Maybe you identified as nonbinary and later realize you're a binary trans person. Or perhaps you identified as agender but later feel more connected to genderfluid as a description. These shifts aren't rejections of your previous self—they're continuations of your journey.
Social transitions—like name changes, pronoun shifts, or presentation adjustments—can be modified. Yes, explaining changes to others can be awkward as hell, but people who truly care about you will adjust.
For those who've pursued medical transitions, it's worth noting that research consistently shows low regret rates. A comprehensive review in LGBT Health found that less than 1% of individuals who pursued gender-affirming surgeries reported regret. That said, some aspects of medical transition are reversible, while others aren't—which is why medical providers generally recommend a thoughtful approach.
The Value in the Journey Itself
The most profound insight from many nonbinary people who've "changed their minds" about specific aspects of their gender journey? The exploration itself was valuable regardless of the destination.
Learning to question gender norms, developing self-awareness, and building the courage to live authentically are transformative skills that benefit your entire life—not just your gender expression. These skills carry over into relationships, career decisions, and your overall approach to authenticity.
As one nonbinary participant in a 2022 qualitative study put it: "Every identity I've held has taught me something important about myself. I don't regret any of them, even the ones that no longer fit."
Practical Tools for Gender Exploration
If you're questioning and worried about "getting it wrong," here are some practical approaches that center flexibility:
Try time-limited experiments: Give yourself permission to try expressions, names, or pronouns for a defined period without making permanent declarations. Tell friends, "I'm exploring she/they pronouns for the next month to see how it feels."
Journal the journey: Document your feelings about gender in different contexts and over time. This creates a record of your evolving relationship with gender that can reveal patterns and insights.
Seek flexible support: Connect with therapists and support groups that don't push for permanent declarations but instead support exploration. A good therapist won't rush you toward labels or medical decisions.
Create a distinction between "identity" and "labels": Your internal sense of self may remain consistent even as the language you use to describe it evolves. The words are tools, not your actual identity.
Remember that nonbinary contains multitudes: Within nonbinary experience exists a vast range of expressions and identities. Movement between these isn't "changing your mind"—it's refining your understanding.
Community Wisdom on Changing Minds
One of the most powerful resources for navigating gender questions is the collective wisdom of the nonbinary community itself, where many have walked this path before.
Online communities like NonBinary Reddit and Discord servers offer spaces where you can witness the natural evolution of identity in real time. You'll find people who've shifted between different gender expressions without shame or regret.
Intergenerational connections with older nonbinary individuals can be particularly valuable, as they provide perspective on how gender understanding can evolve across decades—something rarely represented in media.
Local LGBTQ+ centers often host gender exploration groups that create space for questioning without pressure to reach permanent conclusions. These spaces normalize the reality that identity exploration is often non-linear as hell.
Conclusion: The Freedom in Fluidity
The fear of changing your mind reflects a society still caught in binary, permanent thinking about gender. But here's the liberating truth: your gender journey belongs to you, and its value isn't measured by its permanence but by its authenticity.
The nonbinary perspective offers particular wisdom here—our very existence challenges the notion that gender must be fixed, binary, or easily categorized. We understand that life exists in the beautiful, messy spaces between rigid categories.
So if you're asking, "What if I change my mind about my gender identity later?"—perhaps the real question is: "What if I allow myself the freedom to evolve as I learn more about myself?" Because that isn't failure. That's the whole damn point of being human.
References
Williams Institute. (2022). Nonbinary Adults in the United States. UCLA School of Law.
Matsuno, E., & Budge, S. L. (2023). Social Support and Mental Health Outcomes Among Nonbinary Individuals. Journal of LGBT Health, 10(2), 125-142.
Richards, C., et al. (2021). Gender Fluidity and Variability in Gender Expression: A Longitudinal Study. Archives of Sexual Behavior, 50(1), 67-78.
Olson-Kennedy, J., et al. (2022). Gender-Affirming Care: Outcomes and Decision-Making Processes. LGBT Health, 9(4), 246-258.
Singh, A. A., & dickey, l. m. (2023). Affirmative Counseling with Transgender and Gender Diverse Clients. American Psychological Association.
National Center for Transgender Equality. (2024). Understanding Nonbinary Identities. NCTE Resource Library.
Wendy, I didn’t want to be the first to comment on this yesterday when I read it. It had just come out, like a minute before, on my feed.
First, this is a thoughtful, intelligent, articulate work that deserves to be read by people - not just those with the incorrect / imprecise understanding of gender dynamics, but by critics of the idea that there are two genders, the end, full stop. I hope it gets that kind of readership.
Scientists in biology have long known that biological gender is not so binary; it flows along a spectrum that has no hard-carved notches in it. Psychologists, dealing in the more hidden aspects of it, have created an “altruistic model” of gender identity that still inhabits the mental map of male >OR< female, with tendencies in either direction, but still beating a historical drum of binary-ness as a personal destination, not a human journey. For related reasons, I take deep issue with the DSM-XX model that underscore a “unified” diagnostic model that doesn’t effectively consider gender (for fear of “labeling” female-orientation and male-orientation as “sexism”) for what it is, which is spectral.
I will never believe gender is finitely anything, and critics can fuck right off.
People can’t be told to accept a different reality that conflicts with their childhood right-v-wrong one until they are forced into the fight, sometimes because of their own identity, and as your first reader-commenter said, because of children. So I wouldn’t want people who are just reading this as a filling their clip with anti-trans/LGBQ ammo to start shooting away (metaphorically) at your piece. Instead, I hope people read this through a more clinical view that presupposes only “What if I was not the fucking expert I think I am on gender?” And comes away with a wider understanding of physical and psychic reality. It doesn’t make me one *political* identity over another because I am willing to accept the *scientific* reality of gender-spectrum dynamics. Said another way, you’re not liberal because you’re gender-complexity aware.
I was going to go into some of the issues with the DSM-n failings, but I’ll save that for another day. Psychologists, therapists, and psychiatrists would do well to read this work. It’s excellent, lays it out in a logical way, and is thorough in its treatment for the forum you’ve published it in. Great job! Thank you.
Thank you, Wendy! This is an excellent essay. ❤️