Queer Thoughts: What recurring patterns in my life history suggest I've been navigating gender complexity, even before I had the language to describe it?

The Mindfuck of Gender: It's Not Just a Simple A-to-B Journey

Holy shit, let's get one thing crystal clear right off the bat: gender isn't some neat little package with a bow on top. It's more like a Jackson Pollock painting that someone set on fire - beautiful, chaotic, and completely refusing to stay in any goddamn lines. Whether you're transgender, genderqueer, genderfluid, or questioning what the fuck is even happening with your gender - your journey is valid, and those early signs were real as hell.

The Signs Were There (In Their Own Beautifully Messy Way)

Let's break this down, because your experience matters, whether your gender is fixed, fluid, or telling gravity to go fuck itself:

1. The Identity Mosh Pit

Some days you felt like screaming "I'm definitely not my assigned gender!" Other days it was more like "I'm kind of everything? Nothing? Someth…