The fucking day had been a marathon of bullshit layered with the special kind of creative constipation that makes writers want to burn their laptops and become accountants instead.
Man, I never saw that land of confusion Genesis video. What a trip. I was a freshman at UCLA at the time with my head in the books!! I was definitely not watching MTV that year. Hey, donβt get me wrong. I was at plenty of parties with music blasting in the background just never took the time to watch videos at that time.
Here in rural, conservative, southern Indiana, toxic masculinity is predominant.
I'm a gay man and in the decades of being closeted that's what I became. I was not a pleasant person. I was one of those nasty, hateful closeted fucks.
A big part of my coming out was deconstructing that ugly version of masculinity as thoroughly as from Christianity.
Eric has been able to resist the powerful urge to 'fit in'. I wasn't. I hurt two young men, not physically, emotionally, which can be worse. I don't seek absolution, I deserve to carry that guilt.
I love these stories from, "The Sanctuary"!!!β€οΈππ―βΌοΈ
Yeah, I've been treated as if I'm not a "real man" because of how I act and who I'm attracted to. I've had to roll my eyes so often at those comments, they don't even know what color they are.
Transitioning to a toxic masculine identity is what we used to call integrating into a burning building. I'm glad Erik is on the way to finding out how to confront it before he turns into it. Teaching his peers is a bigger fight than he might want to get into, at least right now. Some seniority is required before wisdom can be attributed. As your tribe knows!
This:
βreal strength isn't about dominating othersβit's about lifting them upβ
Man, I never saw that land of confusion Genesis video. What a trip. I was a freshman at UCLA at the time with my head in the books!! I was definitely not watching MTV that year. Hey, donβt get me wrong. I was at plenty of parties with music blasting in the background just never took the time to watch videos at that time.
I understand Eric's questions and pain.
Here in rural, conservative, southern Indiana, toxic masculinity is predominant.
I'm a gay man and in the decades of being closeted that's what I became. I was not a pleasant person. I was one of those nasty, hateful closeted fucks.
A big part of my coming out was deconstructing that ugly version of masculinity as thoroughly as from Christianity.
Eric has been able to resist the powerful urge to 'fit in'. I wasn't. I hurt two young men, not physically, emotionally, which can be worse. I don't seek absolution, I deserve to carry that guilt.
I love these stories from, "The Sanctuary"!!!β€οΈππ―βΌοΈ
I keep writing them, and I have no intention to stop.
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Yeah, I've been treated as if I'm not a "real man" because of how I act and who I'm attracted to. I've had to roll my eyes so often at those comments, they don't even know what color they are.
You should NOT be treated that way, Brandon, ever.
Transitioning to a toxic masculine identity is what we used to call integrating into a burning building. I'm glad Erik is on the way to finding out how to confront it before he turns into it. Teaching his peers is a bigger fight than he might want to get into, at least right now. Some seniority is required before wisdom can be attributed. As your tribe knows!