I wish I hadn’t had to keep popping out for a few minutes. This was so good and is so relatable. I’ve been slowly untangling my faith or lack of faith off and on for several years. But I didn’t realize how traumatized I was by my religious upbringing until recently. I didn’t feel guilty for the brief years I took my children to church until recently. I didn’t cry over it until recently writing about it in my journal. There is so much shit to unpack and sort through. Thank you for everything.
I understand this. I'm exactly the same way. I also have had diagnoses, born from trauma, that when they all rear their heads and flood my brain, I too am all over the place. Adhd. Anxiety. Severe Cptsd. Ruminating Thoughts. Disassociation.
And the most recent, which the verdict is still out on( I'm not confident it's correct) highly functional adult autism. Welcome to my brain, 😅 I have a hellava time trying to articulate my thoughts verbally, when it's most important that I do so.
I understand how hard it is, to focus, when you're trying to relay to someone about an event that harmed you. Sometimes our brains have too much in there, from the trauma, it's nearly impossible to compartmentalize the stuff, to separate it all... To attack one thing at a time, to talk about one thing at a time.
I " Squirrel * a lot.
If indeed this is what you meant, I mean. It sometimes helps to write what you want to say. Even in my past situations, i sometimes had to write people letters. Because when I'm highly emotional, I cannot speak properly; I can’t concentrate, nor focus. Sometimes, i can't stop crying long enough, to articulate what I'm trying to get across. I'd write it all down, instead. Then have that letter read in front of me, and then there could be a discussion. Religious relatives messed with my head for decades; telling me I was going to hell. It took me decades to learn about " bad catholics".. that they are Not true believers in what they preach. What they did behind closed doors proved that to me.
As much as I'd love to go on panel, alas, it'd be a miracle if I'd ever get the courage. I'm much to camera shy, and I'm always way too self conscious about annoying people. I'm one of many, whom have been told *I'm too much*
I envy those of you who can go on a live, and feel so comfortable lol.
Oh, and Wendy? Mother Theresa, Was Not a Good Human. When I heard you say what you knew, I literally shouted "Thank you!!" You are the only other person that's ever said that, besides my old friend and librarian! She filled me in on how truly selfish she was, and what a wicked hypocrite that old woman truly was.
When people ask me what I believe in?
Always the same answer.
Do as you shall; but harm none.
This is what I've based my entire life on, since I was very young. It just resonated with me.
Ugh, I just found this live rn..ok so I'm watching it now. I think this is the one I was trying to find earlier.
I wish I hadn’t had to keep popping out for a few minutes. This was so good and is so relatable. I’ve been slowly untangling my faith or lack of faith off and on for several years. But I didn’t realize how traumatized I was by my religious upbringing until recently. I didn’t feel guilty for the brief years I took my children to church until recently. I didn’t cry over it until recently writing about it in my journal. There is so much shit to unpack and sort through. Thank you for everything.
We are happy to have you on in the next session to talk through it Donna.
All up to you.
If I can get my thoughts together in a coherent way, I’d love to. It seems like when I try to talk about it I’m all over the place.
I understand this. I'm exactly the same way. I also have had diagnoses, born from trauma, that when they all rear their heads and flood my brain, I too am all over the place. Adhd. Anxiety. Severe Cptsd. Ruminating Thoughts. Disassociation.
And the most recent, which the verdict is still out on( I'm not confident it's correct) highly functional adult autism. Welcome to my brain, 😅 I have a hellava time trying to articulate my thoughts verbally, when it's most important that I do so.
I understand how hard it is, to focus, when you're trying to relay to someone about an event that harmed you. Sometimes our brains have too much in there, from the trauma, it's nearly impossible to compartmentalize the stuff, to separate it all... To attack one thing at a time, to talk about one thing at a time.
I " Squirrel * a lot.
If indeed this is what you meant, I mean. It sometimes helps to write what you want to say. Even in my past situations, i sometimes had to write people letters. Because when I'm highly emotional, I cannot speak properly; I can’t concentrate, nor focus. Sometimes, i can't stop crying long enough, to articulate what I'm trying to get across. I'd write it all down, instead. Then have that letter read in front of me, and then there could be a discussion. Religious relatives messed with my head for decades; telling me I was going to hell. It took me decades to learn about " bad catholics".. that they are Not true believers in what they preach. What they did behind closed doors proved that to me.
As much as I'd love to go on panel, alas, it'd be a miracle if I'd ever get the courage. I'm much to camera shy, and I'm always way too self conscious about annoying people. I'm one of many, whom have been told *I'm too much*
I envy those of you who can go on a live, and feel so comfortable lol.
Oh, and Wendy? Mother Theresa, Was Not a Good Human. When I heard you say what you knew, I literally shouted "Thank you!!" You are the only other person that's ever said that, besides my old friend and librarian! She filled me in on how truly selfish she was, and what a wicked hypocrite that old woman truly was.
When people ask me what I believe in?
Always the same answer.
Do as you shall; but harm none.
This is what I've based my entire life on, since I was very young. It just resonated with me.
Thats the best time to talk about it. Raw. Emotional. Unfocused. You can tend to reveal things that provide helping you process it easier.